Better to die saving lives than to live with taking them.
Isn't that how it goes? That's how Jim sees the world but Felix Caelus isn't, has never been Jim Kirk. And he knows Jim well enough to see that he would absolutely follow through with that mantra before he left a single person behind. He's sounded Jim out well enough to step in and intervene on his behalf. It's something Spock or Bones might do, and even as Jim's making the comparison he's gritting his teeth because it doesn't make him any less angry that it came to this.
That someone who wasn't him made the call. But that's what happens when people care about you. Spend enough time sticking your neck out for others and someone's bound to try and do it back eventually.
"I wasn't--" The captain isn't going to try and sell that lie when he's too weak to stand on his own. It doesn't stop the vitriolic hatred at his own weakness or inability to help those who have been left behind. Or the way his heart wrenches at how desperate Felix looks at this moment staring back at Jim.
"Fucking...can't believe you. Why didn't you tell me what you were planning? I could have helped--maybe we could have found a way to make it work! We didn't try."
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Isn't that how it goes? That's how Jim sees the world but Felix Caelus isn't, has never been Jim Kirk. And he knows Jim well enough to see that he would absolutely follow through with that mantra before he left a single person behind. He's sounded Jim out well enough to step in and intervene on his behalf. It's something Spock or Bones might do, and even as Jim's making the comparison he's gritting his teeth because it doesn't make him any less angry that it came to this.
That someone who wasn't him made the call. But that's what happens when people care about you. Spend enough time sticking your neck out for others and someone's bound to try and do it back eventually.
"I wasn't--" The captain isn't going to try and sell that lie when he's too weak to stand on his own. It doesn't stop the vitriolic hatred at his own weakness or inability to help those who have been left behind. Or the way his heart wrenches at how desperate Felix looks at this moment staring back at Jim.
"Fucking...can't believe you. Why didn't you tell me what you were planning? I could have helped--maybe we could have found a way to make it work! We didn't try."