"Felix I have an entire ship worth of 'artifacts' if that's all it takes to appease your daedra."
It can't be so simple and Jim knows it isn't. Anger ripples beneath his skin that Felix thinks he'd buy such a flimsy evasion. That Jim is taking every possible chance for Felix to explain himself and the mage is bound and determined to make the captain feel like a fool for putting that trust into Felix in the first place.
Jim grits his teeth. If he opens his mouth now, there's no telling what would come out. This is his husband for crying out loud. Jim can't just go picking a fight with him but Felix makes him want to so badly. They don't talk about the Many reasons people tell Jim not to trust Felix. They don't talk about Rielle or what lead to it. They don't talk about Felix's conjuration in any great detail. The captain's hardly ever seen Felix do his chosen field of magic.
It's always done hidden away, snuck off into the night whether on the ship or in the Nexus or even in Jim's house in Iowa. Felix clearly doesn't trust Jim with his talents. And yet every time there's trouble Jim's right there to rationalize that Felix meant well. Put his actions in the best light possible.
He loves Felix Caelus with all his heart but goddamn does Jim want to punch his teeth in right now.
"Is this just how it's going to be? You really think I'm going to keep turning the other cheek every time you sneak off to circumvent my goals. Open up to you when you hide everything that makes you who you are no matter how much I say I want to help and learn about you?" How many more times is Jim going to have to charge blindly into a hellscape of Felix's own creation with little more to go on than his own desperation?
He used to get angry when people were so eager to speak ill of Felix. Jim still gets angry about it. But with all of Felix's gods as his witness, Jim does understand them. Again he bites his tongue because to say more would mean treading into waters that are dangerous at best. But it's a pressure of unspoken words building. The captain knows he's far from blameless or perfect. That Felix only acted like this because Jim pushed himself so hard. Felix didn't even try to reason with Jim or ask to talk.
"This can't happen again." Every word is measured, weighed carefully. He's definitely not recovered enough to go to the gym to let off some steam and that lack of outlet for his temper is only making this more difficult.
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It can't be so simple and Jim knows it isn't. Anger ripples beneath his skin that Felix thinks he'd buy such a flimsy evasion. That Jim is taking every possible chance for Felix to explain himself and the mage is bound and determined to make the captain feel like a fool for putting that trust into Felix in the first place.
Jim grits his teeth. If he opens his mouth now, there's no telling what would come out. This is his husband for crying out loud. Jim can't just go picking a fight with him but Felix makes him want to so badly. They don't talk about the Many reasons people tell Jim not to trust Felix. They don't talk about Rielle or what lead to it. They don't talk about Felix's conjuration in any great detail. The captain's hardly ever seen Felix do his chosen field of magic.
It's always done hidden away, snuck off into the night whether on the ship or in the Nexus or even in Jim's house in Iowa. Felix clearly doesn't trust Jim with his talents. And yet every time there's trouble Jim's right there to rationalize that Felix meant well. Put his actions in the best light possible.
He loves Felix Caelus with all his heart but goddamn does Jim want to punch his teeth in right now.
"Is this just how it's going to be? You really think I'm going to keep turning the other cheek every time you sneak off to circumvent my goals. Open up to you when you hide everything that makes you who you are no matter how much I say I want to help and learn about you?" How many more times is Jim going to have to charge blindly into a hellscape of Felix's own creation with little more to go on than his own desperation?
He used to get angry when people were so eager to speak ill of Felix. Jim still gets angry about it. But with all of Felix's gods as his witness, Jim does understand them. Again he bites his tongue because to say more would mean treading into waters that are dangerous at best. But it's a pressure of unspoken words building. The captain knows he's far from blameless or perfect. That Felix only acted like this because Jim pushed himself so hard. Felix didn't even try to reason with Jim or ask to talk.
"This can't happen again." Every word is measured, weighed carefully. He's definitely not recovered enough to go to the gym to let off some steam and that lack of outlet for his temper is only making this more difficult.