"...It's not?" Maybe not. But... he shifts just enough to be able to keep his eyes on Jim as he lets them half close.

"Might be simpler if it was." If he knew how to make this right so easily. "Whatever it takes, though..."

This is his fault, one way or another. And whatever he has to do to make Jim smile again, he will. He'll keep himself turned towards his husband until he drifts into a sedative-aided sleep.