Felix's heart might have stopped in that moment. The bottom drops out of his stomach as he stares at Jim. For a moment his mouth works, searching for the words he needs to fix this and make it better.

"Because I love you. So that we'd care for each other and..." Speak truth to each other. Be each other's shield. Stand together against your troubles. Felix pushes himself up, ignoring the twinge through his medicated numbness as he swings his legs over the edge of the bed.

"And I know I'm not living up to those vows but I swore myself to you and I meant it." Don't say things like that don't question this no no no nono...