Felix drops his gaze at that rebuke, hands lowering from Jim's face. After how he's handled his own feelings here, what right has he to tell Jim how to interpret his? And he can only wince when Jim calls him out on his excuses.

"I'm sorry," he says, knowing it's not enough. He can open up about everything he's done but until he shows Jim he can change his habits, such belated truths will only rub in how much Felix has already kept from him.

Still, he says it: "When you want to hear it... the whole story. I'll tell you everything. Stratos too, I suppose.,. he'll want to know."